16.1.13

460. On being a mother.

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Right now, I'm grateful that I blog. That I take hundreds of photos. So I can look at them when I'm feeling down. Dude, toddlers are HARD WORK. Daniel will be three in a couple of months, and I thought we were going to escape the terrible-twos basically unscathed. I was so wrong. This week has been hard. Daniel's pushing his boundaries and throwing some serious strops. We use time-out as our discipline technique, which gives me a chance to calm down at least, and then we talk about what he did wrong and he says sorry. Colin thinks it's 'not working anymore', but I still think it's the best option for us. It eliminates the whining (for more than two minutes) which I just cannot deal with. Tonight we had a ridiculous stand-off over putting away the bath letters/cleaning his teeth. I lost my temper and while he was thrashing around having a strop he hit me. Not on purpose but it's not acceptable. I feel awful now, for shouting and scaring Joshua. We were both tired, he didn't nap for long enough and I'm still getting up two/three times a night with Joshua, but it's not an excuse. I'm still learning about this 'job', I'm nowhere near perfect. Tomorrow I will be calmer, more patient. I'll learn from my mistakes. My boys are teaching me everyday, how to be a mother, the best one I can be. Luckily I have two wonderful boys who will forgive me, and love me regardless. Right now I just want to climb into bed with Daniel, squeeze him and tell him how much I love him. I held Joshua for longer than usual after he fell asleep tonight too. I love them, more than I ever thought I could. I hope they know that.

Lots of Love
Momma B
xxx

9 comments:

  1. Hang in there!! I know how hard it is toddlers can give you a run for your money! All moms have these moments! Tomorrows a new day! Xoxo Tori

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    1. Thankyou so much for this, I really needed it! Xxx

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  2. Hang in there!! I know it's tough and exhausting!

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  3. Hope today is much much better. Toddlers are hard and you can't keep them happy all the time, even without a 2nd baby I find coping with the tantrums can be overwhelming sometimes!

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    1. It was, thankyou! Joshua is hardly ever the problem, it's the terrible twos that are causing the most stress!! I'm glad we can support each other, it's so nice to know you're not alone! Xxx

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  4. Chiming in with another "hang in there!" I can totally empathize with you, toddlers can be so tough!

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    1. Thankyou so much! They need a user-manual, or at least a warning!!! ;) xxx

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  5. It can be hard; I remember, but anything truly worthwhile is hard. You are doing an outstanding job and I am very proud of you. Daddy. xxx

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